M
Moz
I have felt more an more depressed this week ....
Im quite unhappy/down/depressed/whatever you may call it here ...
the mourning for my wife has started to surface ....I have been a bad tempered nasty drunk the last few days
more than my usual self ...
last week I was still playing the holidaymaker with Wendy ,
went to the only cinema on the island ,watched some new English period drama
even had a yank girl as the lead with god awful accent !
it was that rubbish cannot remember name of film
went to the Island zoo ...lol , giant hamsters on show ,
just fat ones more like lol..lol,
an big island cats ,
my fat Puss (salford born lass)Purdy at home would tear em apart ,lol..lol
Went to the only golf course ,
had a fall out with a yank manager there ,
cos he wanted to know my handicap an could I verify it from my Golf Club In England so they could check up,lol..lol stuck up ****!
Told him it was the Private club in Middleton Manchester ......
forget to mention I got banned /blackballed years ago ,(as told here then ,lol )after I got drunk in the clubhouse an laid into the *Mediocre Mafia * (the Masons ) there ..lol
anyway we had a afternoon on their practise putting green there ....
went out on Wendies boat for a day ...........tried fishing it was a good day but after a few Presses beer was feeling uuuurgh ....
another day we went on the razzle ..
hit front st /back st an the coloured bars
when I say coloured I aint being racist , its a term here for Black /A Real Islander !
spent all after in the usual bars had some eats in back st , then hit coloured bars ...creole /spanish/black mix dance bars/clubs
brill .......
throwing good xtasies /drink down our throuts an dancing til dawn ....
then chilling out around the pool back at home........
how we both got home we both dont Know ..lol ...fantastic time ..
in all even though Im a sarcastic moany old git , we had a good week ...
this week I been itching as you do for the holiday to finish an then remembering it doesnt ...
an of course the very torrential heavy rain in the afternoons hasnt been nice ,
I know its done in half an hour , then red hot sunshine , then rain an then sun ...then .....hmmm
Just homesick .....
anyway ...
Romantically we are a couple ,which is Fantastic ....
Im just some what distant at times which is understandable ..
I have really hit the drink the last few weeks ,
as a heavy drinker no probs ,
just finding it harder to get pi**ed now ...
an drinking Jack daniels /Rum ....More ...
the last few days I have been just going to local Expats bars an getting Wasted ......
an rolling in hammered an Wendy putting me to bed ...
fancy asking the caribbean /coloured taxi lad take me too Heaton Moor !...
where mon ?
She is very similar to my late sweet wife in the *morning after routines* ...lol
til I go out an do it again .....
I wouldnt mind if my drinking partners were anything but good lads...but Im supping with hooray henry/yuppie tory types who I back home despise ..an I would kick off with ...lol..lol......lol
what really ....really annoys them an upsets them is when after they have told me about the lil yacht /villa they have ....
they think I am off a cruiser .........
one of the many cruise ships that dock an spew the rubbish here as they told me !, I couldnt careless but tell everyone I live on the main beach road as there is two tariffes tourist/islander ...
what upsets the expat/tories here is....
when I tell them where I live ...!!!!( cohabiting .....well for the time being ..!!!)
It IS like THE London Mayfair area of the Island...lol...lol..lol..snobby gets ...lol
an I like to wind them up by casually saying .....
its not a patch on our old Salford sink estate in Manchester ... lol...lol.......lol......lol...
I was supping with a yank lad the other afto , he is a reality agent /yank name for estate agent ,
him going on about his rentals ...etc...Yawn
I asked him what could the villa /beach an boat earn a week he said a easy a grand
I told him wells that sound there fella a grand a week , bang on , thanks for the heads up ,
he jumped by saying ,
NO NO NO ....its a Grand pound sterling per persons a day ...
nearly fell off my seat ...an from what he told me , thats quite reasonable for visitors here ,
he asked how many beds an baths?...
told him 4 beds /baths
told me he could do select responisble Yank Yacht clients with full guarantees /6 months lets, 40k pound sterling a week ....
sounds wonderfully , I then went off to the back st an carried on drinking....lol..lol
I need the reality release ......
just after 4 here in the afternoon ...Im starting at the rum ...oh dear ..lol...lol..lol
maybe I want it to become a huge row , an she throws me out ...or we sit an talk .....
I know she wont stick my bad ways at the moment cause of her awful abusive drunk father ...
how is it blokes can fight a 20 stone Tyson but sitting down an a discussing relationship issuses is another matter ...blokes cannot start ? !
I need Her to start the ball rolling an ........we can be honest then with each over .......
or is it just me being spineless/weak ?
Im quite unhappy/down/depressed/whatever you may call it here ...
the mourning for my wife has started to surface ....I have been a bad tempered nasty drunk the last few days
more than my usual self ...
last week I was still playing the holidaymaker with Wendy ,
went to the only cinema on the island ,watched some new English period drama
even had a yank girl as the lead with god awful accent !
it was that rubbish cannot remember name of film
went to the Island zoo ...lol , giant hamsters on show ,
just fat ones more like lol..lol,
an big island cats ,
my fat Puss (salford born lass)Purdy at home would tear em apart ,lol..lol
Went to the only golf course ,
had a fall out with a yank manager there ,
cos he wanted to know my handicap an could I verify it from my Golf Club In England so they could check up,lol..lol stuck up ****!
Told him it was the Private club in Middleton Manchester ......
forget to mention I got banned /blackballed years ago ,(as told here then ,lol )after I got drunk in the clubhouse an laid into the *Mediocre Mafia * (the Masons ) there ..lol
anyway we had a afternoon on their practise putting green there ....
went out on Wendies boat for a day ...........tried fishing it was a good day but after a few Presses beer was feeling uuuurgh ....
another day we went on the razzle ..
hit front st /back st an the coloured bars
when I say coloured I aint being racist , its a term here for Black /A Real Islander !
spent all after in the usual bars had some eats in back st , then hit coloured bars ...creole /spanish/black mix dance bars/clubs
brill .......
throwing good xtasies /drink down our throuts an dancing til dawn ....
then chilling out around the pool back at home........
how we both got home we both dont Know ..lol ...fantastic time ..
in all even though Im a sarcastic moany old git , we had a good week ...
this week I been itching as you do for the holiday to finish an then remembering it doesnt ...
an of course the very torrential heavy rain in the afternoons hasnt been nice ,
I know its done in half an hour , then red hot sunshine , then rain an then sun ...then .....hmmm
Just homesick .....
anyway ...
Romantically we are a couple ,which is Fantastic ....
Im just some what distant at times which is understandable ..
I have really hit the drink the last few weeks ,
as a heavy drinker no probs ,
just finding it harder to get pi**ed now ...
an drinking Jack daniels /Rum ....More ...
the last few days I have been just going to local Expats bars an getting Wasted ......
an rolling in hammered an Wendy putting me to bed ...
fancy asking the caribbean /coloured taxi lad take me too Heaton Moor !...
where mon ?
She is very similar to my late sweet wife in the *morning after routines* ...lol
til I go out an do it again .....
I wouldnt mind if my drinking partners were anything but good lads...but Im supping with hooray henry/yuppie tory types who I back home despise ..an I would kick off with ...lol..lol......lol
what really ....really annoys them an upsets them is when after they have told me about the lil yacht /villa they have ....
they think I am off a cruiser .........
one of the many cruise ships that dock an spew the rubbish here as they told me !, I couldnt careless but tell everyone I live on the main beach road as there is two tariffes tourist/islander ...
what upsets the expat/tories here is....
when I tell them where I live ...!!!!( cohabiting .....well for the time being ..!!!)
It IS like THE London Mayfair area of the Island...lol...lol..lol..snobby gets ...lol
an I like to wind them up by casually saying .....
its not a patch on our old Salford sink estate in Manchester ... lol...lol.......lol......lol...
I was supping with a yank lad the other afto , he is a reality agent /yank name for estate agent ,
him going on about his rentals ...etc...Yawn
I asked him what could the villa /beach an boat earn a week he said a easy a grand
I told him wells that sound there fella a grand a week , bang on , thanks for the heads up ,
he jumped by saying ,
NO NO NO ....its a Grand pound sterling per persons a day ...
nearly fell off my seat ...an from what he told me , thats quite reasonable for visitors here ,
he asked how many beds an baths?...
told him 4 beds /baths
told me he could do select responisble Yank Yacht clients with full guarantees /6 months lets, 40k pound sterling a week ....
sounds wonderfully , I then went off to the back st an carried on drinking....lol..lol
I need the reality release ......
just after 4 here in the afternoon ...Im starting at the rum ...oh dear ..lol...lol..lol
maybe I want it to become a huge row , an she throws me out ...or we sit an talk .....
I know she wont stick my bad ways at the moment cause of her awful abusive drunk father ...
how is it blokes can fight a 20 stone Tyson but sitting down an a discussing relationship issuses is another matter ...blokes cannot start ? !
I need Her to start the ball rolling an ........we can be honest then with each over .......
or is it just me being spineless/weak ?